Friday, January 1, 2010

New Year, New Goals

I intend to work on myself this year. There's so much it's difficult to know where to start. I am in poor health, physically and mentally. I need to restructure my days so I can nurture myself. I have been neglecting myself for years and it not only shows but it's impossible to hide. The last good thing I did for myself was quitting smoking five years ago.

Past resolutions have all dealt with money in some way, ultimately about self-control. Changing bad habits. Eliminating them. I feel I have mostly conquered all of that, improving upon them as I go.

Doing nice things for myself has always involved spending money in some way. Buying myself something special, treating myself to this or that once a week, rewarding myself with things/trips/me time. It all sounds pretty good, really. Nice things, fun vacations, time alone to relax. Yet none of it nurtures. It's all quite superficial, really, and not making me a healthier person.

I need to focus on other things about me, things I have been ignoring. Things I was hoping would either fix themselves or just go away. I have worked hard to identify these things, how they came about and how to address them now. I'm too shy to list them here but they are biggies, including how I treat myself and others. I intend to hit them head-on, no looking back.

Cheers for the new year!

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